Monday of 3rd week in Lent

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There were many lepers in Israel .

Yet none were cured except Naaman.
When will our time come, we cannot tell.
Our fate is of every man and no man.
Why does God act in one moment .
Why this particularity.
Can we try and discern more in Lent.
Does  he just choose and act in his charity.
Out of the whole history of the Universe.
Why did he choose that place and time.
Can we ever put time forward or into into reverse.
Can we ever understand his reason and rhyme.
And thus all is mystery.
And part of our future and history.
…….
Of this we are sure
No prophet is accepted
In his own country
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See Luke 4 24-30

3rd Sunday in Lent

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But if they ask me what his name is.

What am I to tell them.
We only know that we are his.
We only say Come Lord , come.
And God said to Moses.
I am who I am.
An answer as beautiful and prickly as roses.
And as gentle as a lamb.
Do not try and worry what God is .
Only that God is.
That all of creation is his.
That all encompassing mystery is his.
We stare  too into the ever burning bush.
We do not now understand but there is no rush.
…….
We ask what God is
We only know that God is.
Is that not enough
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See Exodus 3 : 1-8, 13-15

Saturday of 2nd week in Lent , St Joseph

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That is why what fulfils the promise.

Depends on faith, so that it may be a free gift .
Is there something  here that I miss.
How can I end my endless drift .
We often lack self confidence in Lent.
But recall, this world as we know it is passing away.
All that we cherish most is in descent.
We can live only for one day , this day.
Our view of God must be like that of a child.
Guileless ,  seeing him as a living mystery.
Rationality , pre determined views filed.
Stepping away from the detritus of our history.
My depression can  surely be lifted.
With the spirit’s help I can be gifted.
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Why do I question .
Can I not accept freely
And be like a child
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See Romans 4 : 13, 16-18 ,22
1 Cor 7: 29-31

Friday of 2nd week in Lent

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It was the stone rejected by the builders.
That became the keystone.
With faith these are the pillars.
We know we are never alone.

I could not sleep.
So I concentrated on breath and scripture.
The effort seemed to work better than counting sheep.
Here was behind closed eyes a calming picture.

What brings joy
It is Lectio Divina
The purest alloy
The most delicate china.

It is a picture into the kingdom.
A country  of so much wisdom.

…….

Where do we find joy
It’s in lectio divina
It’s all so simple

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See Matthew 21: 33-46

Thursday of 2nd week in Lent

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I have made you a light for the nations.
So that my salvation may reach the ends of the earth.
Receive our oblations.
Cover the world with quiet mirth.
The candle was nearing the end of its short life.
But it’s guttering end took a long time.
Ours too soon will be cut with a knife.
Those of us long past our prime.
But staring at the candle.
Time slowed down .
Meditation was given a handle.
No more was there a need to frown.
Thus even long past our might.
We can give our  gentle light.
…..
Our light is passing.
Shadows may be increasing
But we cast shadows
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See Acts 13: 46-49

Wednesday of 2nd Week in Lent

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I have heard the slander of the crowd.
Fear is all around me.
It’s not necessarily true even if loud.
Best if we neither hear nor see.

But as for me I trust in you Lord.
I say , you are my God.
I keep my reply stored.
Merely giving a polite nod.

Don’t worry about what your enemies say.
Don’t even read it .
Live just for this day .
And remember his holy writ.

How soothing it was to read in mass this psalm.
Suddenly all was calm.

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Your thoughts are not you
This life is not permanent
Think on this moment

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See Psalm 30

Tuesday of 2nd week in Lent

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Nor must you allow yourself to be called teachers.

Since you only have one teacher.
Perhaps we are  only just reachers.
I certainly don’t want to be a preacher.
I just want to understand the truth.
And hope that reading will help me
I know I will always be a poor sleuth.
But maybe all this will help me to see.
I doubt if anyone knows for sure .
What awaits us eventually.
But a sense of peace is the lure.
So it is all just  there potentially.
But one thing is certain.
We know not what lies behind death’s curtain.
……
I am no preacher
I do not know for certain
What is beyond death
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See Matthew 23 : 1-12

Monday of 2nd week of Lent

 

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Do not treat us according to our sins.

We are left in the depth of distress.
Is it really about who wins.
We are mere pawns in life’s game of chess.
We know our name, where we live, that we are alive.
But we do not really know our true essence.
Do we know who we are however much we strive.
But we are a creature of sentience.
What happens to this consciousness.
Where did it come from or go.
What is its final address.
We are on a melting ice flow.
We search high and low.
Until we die we will not know.
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Where do we come from
Where will we go in the end
At death we will know
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See Psalm 78

2 nd Sunday in Lent

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For us our homeland is in heaven.

And from heaven comes the saviour we are waiting for .
We can repeat this seven times seven.
This goes to our very core.
He will transfigure these wretched bodies of ours.
Into copies of his glorious body.
At the end of our hours.
We hopefully will be ready .
He will do that by the same power.
With which he can subdue the whole universe.
So with fear we need not cower.
Soon our prose life will be transformed into verse
We are not destined to be lost .
Nor surrender at any cost .
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We are transfigured
In the love we show others
That is our true fate
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See Philippians 3 : 17- 4 : 1

 

Saturday of 1st week of Lent

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He causes his sun to rise on bad men as well as good.
And his rain to fall on honest and dishonest men alike .
A good rule , the can’t is not as good as the could.
To accept does not mean that you have to like .

The criticism and abuse was wearing me down.
Then I remembered, soon we will be dead and gone.
Everything then falls into perspective, the up and the down.
Who then will remember or care when we are gone.

What did he say, love your enemies.
And pray for those who persecute you.
Think not of decades but centuries.
And not of ours but the other crew.

In all a sense of proportion.
Avoids so much distortion.

…….

Love those who love you
Well that is all so easy
It’s the other bit that hurts

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See Matthew 5 : 43-48

Friday of 1st week in Lent

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Anyone who is angry with his brother.
Must answer for it before the court.
We just have to accept every another.
And make sure , before it erupts , our anger is caught.

Yesterday I stood in the basement of an office in Westminster.
I was standing in a trickle of water .
It was the Tyburn River.
My thoughts passed to where the gibbets were.

Here a comfortable modern office block.
Then the martyr’s  rope and misery.
Thus flows time’s unregarding clock.
Now just the commuter’s delay, then grave injury.

I thought back to these words , forgive your brother.
Hardly surely too much bother .

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Forgive your brother
Surely that’s not hard to do
But it really is

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See Matthew 5 : 20- 26

Thursday of 1st Week of Lent

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Remember Lord , reveal yourself .

At the time of our distress.

So often we are not ourself .
But we are not any less.
For we are not alone .
We only have to pray.
We just have to realise that life is a loan.
Then we can keep distress at bay .
For the one who asks always receives .
The one who searches always finds.
We may be but falling leaves.
But we can read the spiritual signs.
So ask the door to open .
Let our hearts be open.
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The door is just there
We just have to find the key
And it will open
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See Esther 4:17 and Matthew 7: 7-12

Wednesday of 1st week in Lent

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This is a wicked generation, it is looking for a sign.
The only sign it will be given is the sign of Jonah.
Four times the Gospel mentions the word sign .
Am I searching for a sign .

Is it because at first we duck our mission.
Then sometimes we relent and do our duty.
Is this the true lesson.
We will be alright, we can find true beauty.

But what is our mission.
What are we required to do.
How will we find fruition.
They who do are so few.

Help me find my resolve.
Before I  finally dissolve.

…….

The sign of Jonah
But then what is Jonah’s sign
Ah I wish I knew

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See  Luke 11: 29-42

Tuesday of 1st Week of Lent

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Yes , if you forgive others their failings.

Your Heavenly Father will forgive you yours.
In the gospel today we are told  to start praying.
But he urges these last two lines to open  holy doors.
It’s easy enough to pray .
More difficult to forgive .
We will not be forgiven, even  if we pray.
If we do not forgive.
The other bits , keep your name holy.
Do not put us to the test.
Your will be done wholly .
Are much easier not to resist.
So please forgive us our debts .
As we forgive our owed debts.
…….
Your father knows what
You need  to ask him so you
So you  pray like this
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See Matthew 6 : 7-13

Monday of 1st week of Lent

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I was a stranger and you made me welcome.

In prison and you came to see me .
Yes I am guilty of doing this seldom.
I have still not unlocked this key.
In so far as you did this to the least of mine .
You did it to me .
Again I fear , I’m out of line.
I  have to make a guilty plea .
I think I realise now my fault.
Is not just against them but him.
So I am in fact in default.
It’s all rather shamefully grim.
But it’s the same answer always to all that.
We’re just incompetent triers not a rat .
……..
In so far that you
Do it to the least of me
You do it to me
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See Matthew 25 : 31-46

1st Sunday in Lent

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Invocabit me et ego exaudiam eum eripiam eum.

Et glorificabo eum longitudine dierum adimplebo eum.
When he calls me I will answer him, I will rescue him ,  Lord come.
And honour him ,with long life will I satisfy him,  Lord come.
The sung  mass  introit was from psalm ninety.
The same we sing at Compline on Sunday .
A hymn to the Almighty.
And to hopefulness every day .
What a pleasure it is read Compline.
A peaceful presence on going to bed.
It’s more about consolation than condemning sin.
More about calm than what’s said.
He who abides in the shelter of the most high.
Shall remain under the protection of the most high.
……
It is he who will
Free you from the snare of the
Fowler who seeks to destroy
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See Psalm 90

Saturday after Ash Wednesday

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I have not come to call the virtuous .

But sinners to repentance.
My route to virtue is still circuitous.
From day to day I shift my stance.
He ate and drink with tax collectors.
And sinners .
Perhaps even with tax inspectors.
And every kind of runners and riders.
If he were here .
Would he drink with us .
I suspect he would stay near .
And would do so without any fuss.
We are the tax collector Levi.
He says follow me to the sky .
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He says follow me
Of course we rarely do so
Perhaps we should do
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See  Luke 5: 27-32

Friday after Ash Wednesday

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Then will your light shine like the dawn.
And your wound be quickly healed over .
Forgiving love is like a sword drawn.
A new  limitless Passover.

Is that what you call fasting.
Is that the sort of fast that  does please.
My fast is so inadequate , hardly testing.
Almost  I’m afraid quite a breeze.

I have promised to give up social media.
At least not reading all the hate .
There’s just too much multimedia.
And so much which does grate .

We can’t always do what’s right.
So we use try and know what’s right.

……..

How much should we fast
Whatever we can manage
There is a balance

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See Isaiah 58: 1-9

Thursday after Ash Wednesday

 

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Man who is merely a breath.
Whose life fades like a shadow.
Even content, ours is merely a living death.
Now we are above , soon we will be below.

For anyone who wants to lose his life will save it.
But anyone who loses his life for my sake will save it.
As so we know we will be lifted from the pit.
As long as we attempt to follow his writ.

How these words of his revive me in setbacks.
Even today they helped  me .
Despite all the many kickbacks .
Now I feel more clearly can I see.

So there will always be disappointment.
But we must not fall prey to resentment.

………

So our life passes
Like a shadow ,a mere breath
But then is reborn

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See Vespers of Today , Psalm 143 and Luke 9 : 22-25

Ash Wednesday 2022

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For he is all tenderness and compassion.
Slow to anger , rich In graciousness.
And for him , where is our passion.
And of course there’s our ungratefulness.

I am at the Cathedral listening to Alegri’s Miserere.
Its haunting refrain never fails to move .
We can only keep going despite a tear.
But this sadness too does soothe.

We feel so inadequate.
That our faith is so weak.
But we know we have an advocate .
As long as we continue to seek.

Lent is upon us. We seek the holy door.
It’s not so much as giving up than doing more.

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It’s more tenderness
Rather than mortification
That is the keystone

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See Joel 2 : 12-18

Monday of Week 8 in Ordinary Time

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There is one thing you lack.

Go and sell everything you own.
We find it so hard to give anything back.
To view all our possessions as just a loan.
It’s quite easy to obey the commandments .
Except this, giving up everything .
There are just too many enchantments.
So our renouncements rarely take wing.
Perhaps the secret is not to care.
To view everything as a gift .
To avoid cupidity’s pride and snare.
And steer clear of every kind of rift.
Easy enough to say it.
Very difficult to do it.
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Enter the needle
Impossible for us all
Because we own things
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See Mark 10 : 17-27

Tuesday of Week 8 in Ordinary time . St David . 1 March

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I look on everything as so much rubbish.
As long as I have Christ and being given a place in him.
Here is a real  worthwhile wish .
Here is no mere passing  whim.

As usual I was thinking on wasted opportunities.
A life that could have done so much more .
But I have to cope with my shortcoming realities.
Better to dwell on one’s spiritual core.

You have to live for today’s event.
Tomorrow will have its own challenge.
Tomorrow will be Lent.
Although my fast won’t be at all savage.

I can’t try for perfection on my own.
Everything comes from him  as a loan.

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Try for perfection
Just by your own  small efforts
That’s impossible

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See Philippians 3: 8-14

8 th Sunday in Ordinary Time

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Keep on working at the Lord’s work.

In the Lord you cannot be labouring in vain.
Whether in church or Kirk.
We are all part of the chain.
At my last mass with the monks at Downside .
Never again to hear this Gregorian chant .
Or to have this prayerful guide.
But there never is such a thing as can’t .
Those words of Paul stayed in my mind .
We all have our different work to do .
As we search we will surely find .
Even if at the start we have little clue.
Doing the Lord’s work in  reading and writing.
Wherever it is , is just one form of working.
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Doing the Lord’s work
Is never then done in vain
That’s Something to cheer
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See 1 Corinthians 15 : 54-58

Saturday of Week 7 of Ordinary Time

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I anyone of you is in trouble he should pray.

If anyone is feeling happy he should sing a psalm.
At Downside for one more day .
Here I lay down my head in calm.
I was asked to do the reading from St James.
How awesome  to read in the Abbey .
His truth bursts out in flames.
Veracity‘a eternal  ray .
He tells us the prayer of faith will save the sick man.
And the Lord will raise him up again.
Maybe nothing in life will go to plan.
But with prayer we are safe in sun and rain.
Elijah prayed hard for it not to rain .
And for three and a half years it did not rain.
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Prayer conquers all
If only we can do it
But why not just try
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See James 5: 13-20

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Friday of Week 7 of Ordinary Time

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What can bring us happiness many say.

Lift up the light of your face on us O Lord .
The eternal question , of the can and the may.
Unhappiness cut with the spiritual sword.
I am at Compline at Downside for the last time .
Sitting now alone in the darkened Abbey .
And once again the old feeling of joy is sublime .
Will it come again , maybe .
You will not fear the terror of the night.
Nor the arrow that flies by day .
The darkness always pierced by your light.
Contentment clings like  silver clay .
Upon you no evil shall fall.
We can  pray and walk tall .
……
Here profound silence
The Abbey is quiet and still
Here then I can pray
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See the Psalms of Compline . Ps 4 and Ps 91