Job says, I despise myself.
And I repent in dust and ashes.
Who is ourself.
Where will we be when all this finishes.

I stare at the water in the lake.
Light not absorbed but glinting.
Of this what are we to make.
Is life just redirecting or resurrecting.

There is this moment of just resting.
Not worrying
Or hoping
Just in this moment entering.

We can if we want ,be still
And in nothing have our fill.

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Let’s just rest awhile
Be content in this moment
And look at water

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See Job 42

Where is the way to the dwelling of light.
Where is the place of darkness..
How can we find true light.
When will we curb our restlessness.

What a strange paradox.
That it is God who can create a galaxy., But only we can release to us his spiritual locks.
This is free will, not perplexity.

He won’t invade our heart
We must make the choice.
He finishes , we start.
He wants to hear our authentic voice.

Our guardian angel will help.
But first we must ask for his help.

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God won’t invade hearts
For he respects our free will
We just have to ask

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See Job 38:1

Whatever house.
You enter.
First say , Peace to this house.
For peace needs to be there.

St Therese, no greatness.
No miracles.
Only littleness.
Overcoming life’s shackles.

Why do we strive to achieve.
To be successful.
When we should be happy to receive.
And be peaceful and grateful.

Finding joy in little things.
Ignoring great things.

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Be like St Therese
Find joy in God’s little things
And then be happy

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See Luke 10: 1-12

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No one who puts his hand to the plough.
And Looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.
Are we prepared to make our vow.
Even though we are flawed.

One said, Lord let me bury my father.
Jesus said, let the dead bury their own dead.
Are we prepared spiritually to go much further.
Do we drag our feet like lead.

We go making excuses.
Rather than true commitment.
But we have our uses.
Can we encourage others to recommitment.

We are called.
Despite ourselves , to fate hauled.

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We make our  excuses
We will not commit Togo’s
But we must do so

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See Luke 9: 57-62

I say, you will see heaven opened.
And the angels of God ascending.
Will our own eyes be opened.
And our own soul start ascending.

Like Nathaniel.
Will he see us under the fig tree.
Who knows, who can tell.
We will have to wait and see.

Will we one day see Gabriel.
Will he appear to us.
Again, who can tell.
We can only hope that this is the fate for us.

We keep praying.
And we keep hoping.

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Heaven is opened
Will it be our fate to go
We just do not know

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See John 1: 47-51

Job said, naked I came from my mother’s womb.
And naked shall I return.
Yes we will one day enter our own tomb.
Just how much more do we really have to learn.

The Lord gave.
And the Lord had taken away.
From this life what really can we save .
What treasuries can we lay.

Where are we going.
What are we doing .
And we just slowly dying.
No, from all this we will go on living.

There is hope.
We just have to climb the spiritual slope.

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Naked from the womb
And naked unto our death
But there is then hope

O Lord let me know your way.
Teach me your path.
Can you, our fears allay.
Will you protect us from the devils wrath.

Sometimes we have these dark dreams.
Is it really the devil at work.
Is it as it seems.
Does he lurk.

The best shield is Our Lady.
Pray to her for her intercession.
She is there listening, ready.
Determined on our protection.

We just have to pray the Hail Mary.
And finish with the Holy Mary.

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When some bad dreams come
We must pray the Hail Mary
For our protection

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See Psalm 25

Vanity of vanity , says the preacher.
All is vanity.
We are the seeker.
Can we turn humbly to the Almighty.

Remove vexation from your heart.
And put away evil from your body.
We can only play our part.
For that is what we embody.

For youth and the dawn of life.
Are vanity.
It is so short here this life.
Yes all really is vanity.

But there is new life
Eternal life.

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All is vanity
Our youth slips away so fast
We’re left with old age

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See Ecclesiastes 11:9-12

For everything there is a season.
And a time for every matter under heaven.
We only have  to reason.
There is a heaven.

There is a time to be born.
And a time to die.
Surely after this life we will be reborn.
Even though first we have to die.

There is a time to plant.
And a time to pluck up what is planted.
We must say we can rather than we can’t,
We will be resurerected.

We can cope
We just have to hope.

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We all have our time
We will be resurrected
We just have to hope

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See Ecclesiastes 3: 1-11

Mary said, Behold I am the servant of the Lord.
Let it be to me according to your word.
How much really are we a servant of the Lord.
Do we live every day according to to his word.

I sat alone in the empty Cathedral after dawn .
Sitting alone in the Lady Chapel meditating.
To this I could have sworn.
I felt this presence appearing.

You feel you are not alone.
Is she or somebody else here .
Something on the air, a gentle tone.
Dismissing all doubt and fear.

We can fly hopefully to her presence.
Who knows , is this her true essence.

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If we sit alone
And just try meditating
Then something just comes

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See Luke 1: 26-38

Remove far from me falsehood and lying.
Give me neither poverty nor riches.
away with despair and crying.
We make progress if only in inches.

Feed me with the food that is needful for me.
Lest I be full and deny you.
You know what is right for me.
Even if I have little understanding of you.

We keep struggling.
Trying to to find a median way.
Failing and sometimes succeeding.
Searching for your elusive ray.

We are happy with what we’ve got.
We know that really that is our lot.

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Falsehood and lying.
Nor poverty or riches
Something to aim for

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See Proverbs 30: 5-9

The Lord weighs the heard .
To do righteousness.
Here then is our start.
We need not be less.

This is more acceptable.
Than sacrifice.
We are never pitiable.
All we do will , in his eyes , suffice.

Haughty eyes and a proud heart.
The lamp of the wicked are sin.
We must return to our childish start.
Where we were without sin.

Where do we search with our eyes.
Are we really wise.

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The Lord weighs our heart
To do mere righteousness
Are we up to it

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See Proverbs 21

Those who are well have no need of a physician.
But those who are sick.
Is religion a matter for a mathematician.
A rational argument needing a positive tick.

I sat in the church alone .
And an overwhelming presence filled me.
No need to rationalise , question or atone.
Here I was immersed in a metaphysical sea.

He said, I came not to call the righteous.
But sinners.
Religion is not just for the religious.
But just as much for the searchers.

The feeling passed.
I had, the test, passed.

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We feel a presence
This is not caused by reason
It is deep inside

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See Mathew 9: 9-13

Take, the Master said, what belongs to you.
I choose to give to this last worker.
As I give to you.
There is here then no shirker.

Am I, he said, not allowed to do what I choose.
Or do you begrudge me my generosity.
We really have nothing to loose.
If we accept our fate and every opportunity.

The key is not to be jealous.
If others get more than they deserve.
They may be lucky, lazy and we zealous.
But we should be happy being a mere reserve.

So the last really will be first.
And the first last.

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The last will be first
And yes the first will be last
That is just our fate

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See Mathew 20: 1-16

What you sow does not come to life.
Unless it dies.
This then is our new life.
The rest is just all confusion , even lies.

If there is a natural body.
There is also.
A spiritual body.
In which there is no death, no low.

This natural body.
Is not our true self.
It is a temporary decaying body.
Our eternal spirit is our true self.

Something to look forward to.
And travel in this life to.

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This nature body
Will start to decay and die
The spirit survives

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See 1 Corinthians 15

When I awake, I shall be filled.
With the vision of your presence , O Lord.
Our soul and its meaning is tilled.
As we cross this life’s uneasy ford.

What will we see after death.
Worse than blackness, nothing .
Or a welcoming blazing hearth.
Extraordinary , amazing.

As I read the psalm.
I felt I knew.
Filled with a greater calm.
A wider vision , a new view.

Faith received.
In this moment , I believed.

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Vision of presence
At death , the vision
Of the Lord

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See Psalm 17

Her sins, which are many, are forgiven
For she loved much.
But who is little forgiven.
Loves little , perhaps not much.

Do we have many sins.
Does it matter that much.
Do we love, despite our many sins.
Yes have we have loved much.

What is the point of judging.
Are we not judged.
Is not only God capable of judging.
For he alone is not judged.

Our sins are forgiven.
That is all that is given.

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Sins are forgiven
However many they are
As long as we love

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See Luke 7: 36-50

Love never ends.
As for prophesies, they will pass away.
Hatred  rends.
Love a golden ray.

We know love bears all things.
Believes all things.
Hopes all things.
Endures all things.

We know yet we forget.
Or we cynically doubt.
I n our ways we are too set.
Love put to rout.

But all that matters is love.
So do we embrace love

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If love bears all things
But then often we forget
We ask why I’d that

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See 1 Corinthians 1

He said to his mother, woman behold your son.
Then he said to the disciple, Behold your mother.
We too , all of us, are his son.
And we can , all of us be his disciple.

Will we take him into our home.
Is he in our mind now.
And where does our mind roam.
High, farseeing or just low.

Like Our Lady , we have sorrows.
But with faith they will pass.
There will be tomorrows.
And another saving sacrifice in mass.

Mary stood at the foot of the cross.
We are now redeemed by that cross.

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We stand by that cross
Just as Mary too stood there
And we are redeemed

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See John 19: 25-27

Make a fiery serpent.
And set it on a pole.
Will we repent.
Are we looking deep into our soul.

Moses made a bronze serpent.
And set it on a pole.
The people did see and repent.
They understood its role.

When we look upon the cross.
What do we see.
Is it salvation , is it personal loss.
Is it God we see.

We need to look up.
And the cross, take up.

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Set on a high pole.
Moses sets fiery serpent
For us it’s the cross

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See Numbers 21: 4-21

Remember the end of your life.
And cease from enmity
Where after death will be your strife.
Indeed what will be your very entity.

When we die.
In an instant all forgotten.
Every truth , every lie.
Now there will be no mention.

Look to that day.
Stay peaceful.
When will it come, who can say.
So be restful.

But come it will.
And then truly, we will be still.

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The day that we die
All then will be forgotten
So why worry now

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See Sirach 27

No good tree bears bad fruit.
Nor again does a bad tree bear good fruit.
Where lies our true root.
To what end our life’s pursuit.

Figs are not gathered from thorn bushes.
Nor are grapes picked from a bramble bush.
Do we help to build bridges.
For what do we really push.

The good person out of the treasure of his heart.
Produces good.
And the evil person produces evil from his heart.
His mouth speaks to no good.

On rock, do we build our house
Or on shifting sands, do we scurry like a mouse.

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Good trees bear good fruit
Bad trees of course bear bad fruit
And what do we bear

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See Luke 6; 43-49

Can a blind man lead a blind man.
They both fall into the pit.
Where is our spiritual scan.
How in the spirit do we fit.

A disciple is not above his teacher.
But everyone, when fully trained.
Will be like his teacher.
And in some small way acclaimed.

Why do you see the log that is on your brothers eye.
But do not notice the log.
That is in your own eye.
We wander in a spiritual fog.

Are we the blind man.
Or the sighted man.

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Are we blind and led
Or are really leading
We just do not know

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See Luke 6: 39-42

I say to those who hear.
Do good to those who hate you.
Have no fear.
Bless those who curse you.

The man tried to free the trapped scorpion.
The scorpion tried to sting the helping man.
To sting is nature to the scorpion.
Saving is nature to man.

We may not be appreciated.
We may be rejected
Not wanted.
Even expelled.

But we must turn our cheek.
As we continue to seek

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To those who hate you
Say we just have to love you
That’s the only way

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See 1 John 4:12

Let those who mourn.
Look as if they were not mourning.
Why do we often look so forlorn.
We should in life or despite it, be accepting.

And those who rejoice.
Look as though they were not rejoicing.
So with fear and hope you have a choice.
Just keeping going.

St Paul asks us to treat all the same.
Just carrying on.
All the same.
On and on.

Trusting.
Believing.

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If you are mourning
You just carry on the same
It’s what we all do

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See 1 Corinthians 7