He reproached them for their incredulity.

 
Peter said, I am going fishing.

Jesus stood among them and said.

 
Their eyes were opened and they recognised him.

The tomb the living did enclose.
Christ my hope has risen.
Death is close.
Opened the gates of  death’s prison.

As usual I woke in the middle of the night.
Ready for the usual churning anxiety. Then miracle,  I I I I I had this sense of trust and light.
My fears taken over by more than piety .

I knew before I need only rest my fears in God.
And here half dreaming was the reality.
Here was the lightening rod.
And it for a few fleeting moments ended anxiety.

For one moment , all doubts ended.
Disbelief suspended.

….

We wake in the night
For one moment we believe
And then it is gone

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See Today’s Mass sequence Victimae Pascali Laudes

 
Filled with awe snd great joy.

I have risen and I am with you still.

 
Like the deer that yearns for running streams

 
I am like a dead man , forgotten in mens’ hearts.
Like a thing thrown away.
Pierced by fierce darts.
My troubles I cannot lay .

But he suffered so much more .
He who had done nothing wrong.
It grieves me to my core.
Forcing me to raise his name in song.

So when we are ignored ,  bored.
Unemployed , undervalued.
We remember his poor hands bound by cord.
Crucified , unloved , tortured.

And all this done for the rest of us.
And he didn’t even make any fuss.

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We look at the cross
Something moves within us all
Yet unaffected

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See Psalm 30

He then poured water into a basin.

The Lord has given me a disciple’s tongue.

Judas had taken the piece of bread, he went out .
Night had fallen.
Now starts our period of fear and doubt.
We will know soon if too we are fallen.

Into the night we pass.
All creation falls silent and waits.
We walk through history’s narrow pass.
Pausing at salvation’s gates.

Are we to be redeemed.
Will he be our sacrifice.
Nothing was as it seemed.
Will he pay the ultimate price.

Of course we know the answer.
He is the answer.

…….

Now night has fallen
But we know the dawn will come
And we are grateful

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See John 13 : 21-33, 36-38

You have the poor with you always.
You will not always have me.
On the path to truth there are many ways.
A thousand different ways to see.

I was dreaming all this God business is a myth.
A great boulder seemed to block this thought.
As if Jesus had laid in my path  a monolith.
His  teaching net the idea had caught.

Maybe a trick of the dreaming brain.
But it all seemed real to my sight.
But for it I had been on a clear plain.
And I saw things in a new light.

When we are spoken to .
Do we listen too.

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A dream in the night
And therein is a message
But do I listen

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See John 12 : 1-11

They carried palm branches.

It is better for one man to die.

 
I said you are Gods.
To whom the law of the word is addressed.
So in a way we are all Gods.
But only at his behest .

I dreamt that at last my faith was clear.
And then I saw myself in a mirror .
All signs of age gone , the skin clear .
Anger , depression , fat cut with a scissor.

I was looking at myself fifty years ago.
As my son is now and then the image was gone.
But I was happy, not for a second low.
This is the future, we are not alone.

The Dorian Gray mirror was future reality .
Not the present actuality .

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We ask what is truth
Is it the mirror image
Or what we see now

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See John 10: 31-42

Consider the Lord and his strength.
Constantly seek his face.
We need to go to any length.
To seek divine grace.

We want to be loved and highly regarded.
We think all we do should be approved of.
This makes us restless and troubled.
If we sought God only and his love.

We would always be content.
And would find all things in him.
A truly engaging thought for lent.
We just ask for our faith not to dim.

Give me the grace not to think of myself.
But of God in himself.

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Am I approved of
Let me not care about this
And just think of God

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See Psalm 104 and More Saintly Solutions by Fr Joseph Esper

You will learn the truth.
And the truth will set you free.
I have asked this question since my youth.
I still ask what is the key.

Everyone who commits sin is a slave.
Now the slaves place is not assured.
I am  blind to truth as in a dark cave.
To this life so easily lured.

But the son’s place is assured.
So the son makes you free.
So my malaise can be cured.
I was blind but one day I will see.

Nothing he said has penetrated into us.
But perhaps it always was thus.

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We look for the truth
We know it will set us free
We ask where is it

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See John 8 : 31-42

 
When you have lifted up the son of man.

I am the light of the world.

I have accepted the loss of everything.
I look on everything as so much rubbish.
In God alone we can take wing.
This is all we need to publish.

Irritation is rooted in desire to be in control.
When we surrender that control totally to God.
And renounce our own preferences to our soul.
And put faith in a spiritual God.

The need and motivation.
For irritation disappears.
This is is our salvation.
And the end of all tears.

We can then remain even tempered .
In the face of setbacks and carry on unhindered.

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A simple idea
Is to put God in control
It’s so difficult

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See  Philippians 3 : 8-14 and
More Saintly Solutions by Fr Joseph Esper

The waves of death rose about me.
The pains of the netherworld surrounded me.
I seem submerged in a Black Sea.
In my dreams, resurrection, I could not foresee.

When hope dies.
And worries or grief arise.
In our own view of God, our salvation lies.
We may not be content, but we may be wise.

We wake before dawn’s first light.
With no answer to sleep’s plea
But  I try to keep this prayer in sight .
Enlighten ,guide, strengthen and console me.

I promise to be submissive in all you ask of me.
And to accept all that you permit to happen to me.

….

When sleep does not come
Rest your tired head in prayer
And then rest may come

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See The Entrance Antiphon of today
Psalm 17

You do not know him but.
I know him because from him I have come.
Of our own choice we are stuck in a unholy rut.
Not happy but  spiritually glum.

We may never know for sure.
If he is the one.
But he is the lure.
To the one who is one.

We know he walked.
He taught.
And he talked.
But certainty of divinity cannot be caught.

But the only way to approach the one.
Is to try to get to know this one.

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In my mind’s far depths
I seek the truth that matters
And it alludes me

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See John 7 : 1-2, 10 : 24-30

On every roadway they shall graze.
And each bare height shall be their pasture.
We wander through life’s maze.
Barely understanding our future.

They will never hunger or thirst.
Scorching wind and sun shall never plague them.
Never shall we be cursed .
Nor ever will our hope be numb.

Does a woman forget her baby at the breast.
Or fail to cherish the son of her womb.
We never shall lose our zest .
Or pass forever into the gloom.

Yet even if these forget.
He never will you forget.

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The Lord is saying
At all times I will answer
I will not forget

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See Isaiah 49: 8-15